I’ve sometimes tied my shortcomings to my overwhelming tendency to plan things out. This applies not only to situations that have not occured yet, but to situations that are occuring in the present. While a planned gift and speech can and has worked well in the past, many situations come and go faster than my brain can think through them. This is most often noticed when things of that particular nature are involved, because are not always so obvious in the signals they send out. The remedy for this would be, of course, to become more spontaneous and act rather than think.

But what would that make me? If a punk rocker was told that he would get more chicks if he renounced his punk-rocky ways, there would be a drastic change should he follow that advice. He would reshape his entire personality, changing the basis on which friendships had been formed in the past. People may have liked him for who he was, barring that sole personality trait. However, removing that trait created a domino effect that made a whole new person.

It’s all speculation, but for the time being, speculation is what I do. Even in a matter where speculation is the thing I want to get rid of, I’d like to make sure it’d be worth it. However, the debate stems from the fact that I don’t really know whether the change would be worth it in the end. I’m content with who I am right now. If I were to live the rest of my life the way things are going, I could manage and have a decent life. However, people are always looking for a way to improve themselves, and I have to admit that I’m no exception. The choice between this life and a better one isn’t really a choice.

Yet would that life really be a better one? It’s hard enough imagining myself being more impulsive (this was a start, I’ll admit). So lend me your thoughts on this. If I was to change, what kind of person do you think I would end up being?